A Letter for God

Dear God…
God…If you’re there. If you really exist (I hope you do) please read this.
I am writing this cos’ I don’t know how to tell You what I feel…
They say You already know it without I’m telling You, but does it really true? I don’t know…
Too many questions in my head, I wish I could find the answer but I couldn’t.
Then I turn to You, but You keep silent… What is wrong with You? Or may be I should ask myself, what’s wrong with me?
God, they say You will answer our prayer, but You didn’t answer mine. Why?
I always believe in You, I depend on You but You let me down once…and its hurt…
I won’t forget the day You did it to me…
It was like a nightmare and I wished that I could wake up and realize that it was just a dream. But it wasn’t…
It was real…as real as life…
How could You do this to me?
I was mad…angry…sad…disappointed…and I gave up on You…
I started to lose my faith on You… I thought You didn’t exist.
It took a long time to realize what’s behind this whole thing.
I knew that I’m not a child anymore.
Time to grow up. And grow up means that I have to accept reality and try to deal with Your plan, whatever it is.
May be You have Your own plan and may be it is not something that I want but I have to face it…
May be it is called grow up.
God, You are mystery…
You will always be…