Uneasy

Why???
Why am i never sure for whatever i decided??? Why am i always regretting things i've decided??? Am i being ungrateful? Am i throwing something precious for what??? I don't even know anymore what i want.
I think i'm goint to cry, it's getting harder n harder. They've been very kind to me n i feel like i've been stabbing them from their back. I dont know what to decide.
I dont know the right decision, i dont even know what's right for me.
I'm still searching for the answers, and i keep asking God, what to do???
I just wish God gives me a clue or a maybe just a wink, like some people say, to help me deciding.
God... is it too late? Am i making a mistake again? :(
God..., please help me.......................